We've Been Around The Other Side Of Innocence

I just want to say, that I've seen this movie twice in three days, and I'd be willing to go see it many many more times.
Never before has a movie had me so into it, it doesn't even matter that Brad Pitt is in it, I was engulfed into the movie after the first ten minutes.
I had read the short story, which was the base for the film, but turning a short story into an almost three hour adventure was brilliant. I hope that this movie wins every award possible, and makes some new ones just for it. I can't explain how much I loved it.
Go see it.

Yeah, I'm a loser for never being on here or ever posting.
but after this post, I doubt that anyone will want to read it.

People either say that high school was the best or the worst years of their lives. I have come to realize why that is : people who party and risk it all and whatever, they have the times of their lives. People who work so hard to get things done, who actually try their hardest and keep their grades up because they have to, they suffer. Not for the most part, I'm not meaning to sound completely patheic or anything like that. But hell, I'm so exhausted. Its been roughly two weeks of school, and I'm ready for summer. It's not going to get any easier from here, and it's already hard.

If I'm the way I am now, I can't imagine how some other people are. Those people who put themselves in trouble, the people I can't stand. What's the point, seriously. Grow up and take some responsibilty for your self. You will only be as good as you try to be. Just give your self a chance.

People shouldn't be so damn self absorbed. Newsflash, I have problems too. As terrible as it sounds, I'm so tired of hearing about your problems because even though im 'always there for you' you never even come to mind for me to call when I need help or just some reassureance. Maybe that's my own fault for not picking the best people to associate with.

Just the fact that I hate calling people when I'm upset, because it just makes me seem so weak and childish because it is always the little things that I get so upset over. I feel like I'm not allowed to show people my weak side because they just tell me how strong I am or whatever, basically, being human sucks.

There is no point in people asking me what I think, because they don't care anyways. I honestly wonder why I'm friends with people sometimes. I don't deserve this at all, ever. I just hate being contridicted then I'm expected to have sympathy on people when they get in trouble because of something THEY CAUSED. - I'm so done with that, I don't care if people thing that I'm mean for it, get over it.

All at the same time I miss some people so so so much. I would do anything to go back to when I really was your favorite when I could believe that without a doubt. When we were the best of best friends. The fact that you let other people influence that kind of bothers me, but it wouldn't even matter if we talked now. And I mean by more than just once a week. I miss spending the whole day with you and not worrying about absolutley anything else because you made me feel good, you are my best friend and I just want you back so bad. And I tell you that, and you say that you miss me too, but you still don't call or anything.
You have no idea how bad I wish you were here right this second just to hold me and tell me it will be okay, that's honeslty all I want. I just want you individual attention for more than two minutes. I feel so unimportant to you anymore. I. want. you. back.


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I hate this so much.
I need someone like everyone else.
Im done being a thrid wheel.
I want a someone.

When did we think that this would be easy?

We must have been out of our minds.



I'm posting this, just to have a post. Sorry.
I'll do a real one soon, promise. ;]


PS - I'm super excited for this movie, and I'm re reading this book for the fourth time now ;]